I need to scream
I’m so composed on the outside
Just behaving myself
Sitting quietly in this uber
Because I really care about my rating
… lol.
I need to scream
Scream long
Scream long and deep
And bite
And bite hard
And bite down hard
And scratch
And dig my nails in
And just hold everything there
Till all the energy has flowed out
Out of my body and into my machine
This machine
This impact absorbing machine
This emotion absorbing machine
This soul absorbing machine
This seeing machine
This receiving machine
This neutralizing machine
This caregiving machine
This daddy/mummy machine
This only true human soul god love life spirit truth compassion kindness grace hope faith future peace machine
Where is this machine
Which will see everything that I hide inside me
And receive it all and hold it for me
So that when I’m quiet
In an uber
Caring
About
My
Fucking
4.95* rating
And
Behaving
My
Fucking
Self
I don’t have to feel like this anymore
Because my perfect daddy dom god machine sees me
And I feel inside how I appear outside
God never existed
Jaya Berged 